真的是末日了 :( 明天要考華文而我還沒好好準備。
從星期一到現在我一直在學校裏覺得好累，好煩。我不知道，也許是因為我睡不夠覺，或許真的是我心裏覺得煩？如此的東西我應該最明白的，但我還覺得好復雜。腦子最近有點失靈 :p
有些人使我有些憤憤不平的情緒。看到他們的臉就會不爽。可惜的是我還要明年見到他們。One of the many reasons I hate NJ is people like these sigh. Why can't we mix classes next year i hate my class D:
Just like that the hols are gonna be over :( i feel like they barely started sigh and it's less than a week to chinese promos. Time really waits for no man. I wish there were more days to do my shit in but then 反正 it's not like I have anyone to do shit with. Sucks to be me >(
I just spent two days in sentosa with the fam and it wasnt bad i guess. The hotel swapped our rooms for a suite and it was really nice :) i got an annual pass for USS too so jioing begins soon hehehe
There's tuition and piano tomorrow and some PA meeting on sunday but 我只等待去 HOG hahaha 反正我有這麽少的朋友不妨去吧。Really hope it's nice there!
was i literally today. It's humji's church, and while all I did there was lit homework and study chem and chinese (actually that's quite a lot) I think it was a good day! We met jiwon on the way out (my life is full of 巧) and i think i'm going to paya lebar on sunday :o more for the people than anything else really. I'm just there to mug and meet new people (paiseh i freethinker).
Their church is this youth church, so it's really much more exciting than most others i've seen, and it's really funny because it's hidden in an office building (i think).
These are the kinds of things i do when i have too much time, which is almost everyday :( boliao max sia.
Today I went to do PW in the morning and almost absolutely no one would do our survey ;( sad stuff. They even rejected my flyers wtf. But it was all made better with another PW project.
I went to Bishan (again) to help Hioks, Jolen, Yuxin and Charmaine with their pilot test and 真是太巧了, ran into Yuhang! We're bros fated to meet or what.
So after the pilot test we had dinner and played daidi until like 9+, and became fast friends! We are the four aces now hahahahahahaha I think it was 巧死 that Charmaine jioed him today. We meeting on Tuesday some more.
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Been awhile. Blogs are not so easy to maintain after all :(
For Teacher's Day I went with Humji, Yida, Phil, Pan and a late Julian to Cat High. Best day in a long time! Let's keep it at it that. I still feel the high from it now. Withdrawal symptoms yo.
I became newly acquainted with a lot of people (both in and out of NJ) and I hope we're on our way to becoming friends! Seriously NJ is way cooler with us around ok B)
Last night I played accomplice in the death of about 20 cockroaches in the carpark. Disadvantages of having an indoor carpark eh. Apparently they all hide inside because of the torrential rain lately. It's gotten colder outside than inside and I wonder if I'm still living in Singapore :o I've gotten drenched a lot in the past week. 則我一直傷風，咳嗽。一直喝水也沒用呀。
"I've always depended on the kindness of strangers."
-Blanche Dubois, A Streetcar Named Desire
I AM FUCKING RETARDED I went to eat at the macs at KAP and didn't realise I threw in my wallet when I returned my tray ;( I keep my coins in my pocket and my ezlink card has no value so I didn't realise I didn't have it with me. 僅等到我到家了纔意識到我的錢包不見了。我就著急地趕回去找它，花了半個小時在垃圾袋裏尋找錢包 ;(
雖然 I feel and smelled like shit, I bore witness to kindness from an absolute stranger. The cleaner aunty guided me to the back to look for my missing goods. Just when I was going to give up, I found it (味道的我別說還好) :o I ultimate yolo sia hahaha. I must be famous among their night staff now. I think I may have gotten a preview of my future work life ;(
總之，我超笨。謝謝再見
I got really lost in math today and figured I'm dead for promos :/ time is really running out.
So after school I decided to do math till 9pm, but still got stuck. Mr Teo came along and said it was because I overthink. And I do, all the time.
On the bus on the way to KAP, the lighting was really dim and the bus was somewhat claustrophobic, but I took strange comfort in that. With no sounds but the rumble of the bus and the soft rain shattering against the window panes, everyone else in the bus sat, seemingly contemplating. 我突然覺得開心一點, like the scene took me away momentarily from life outside.
Coming out of the bus, I put my file over my head to shield it from the rain, a futile endeavour I know. Huffing into Macdonalds with a wall of rain falling outside, I noticed some people of the past. I waved slightly, but that was all the contact we had.
Simple things like this are oddly calming, just like some people I know. They I appreciate.
I had more contemplations today, but I'll post about them another day. 如此該夠了。
Sometime earlier this year, I met someone. I was blown away at first sight by her, and we felt the same way about each other overnight, I think.
You probably won't read this, but if you are now, I'd like to tell you that you're forever amazing, and it's really sad that incompatibility can do so much to a relationship. We both like different people now, but our time together still affects me deeply. These kinds of things are difficult to forget.
On the 1st of May I gave something to you that I can never take back, so I do hope you cherish it too. I'll look back on it every time.
I think it was a good thing I left. My role was ill-played, perhaps out of inexperience. It's good to see that you've gotten over it, because people need to move on with life.
I feel like it's been a long time since I left. It's not that I miss you real bad or anything, but sometimes I look back on this and think that it's sad that life has to be this way. It's this way once we move to the outside world too, and I guess we just grew up a little faster than the rest.
I tried to be as ambiguous and specific as possible ok :o
I guess that's part of life as well.
